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Well the weather is much better the snow is just about gone, which only means one thing. Time to get the car out and go for a drive. Hopefully I can get a drive in before I head to Florida.

Yep I am heading to Florida, for the first time in my life I am traveling to a warmer place during winter. Coincidentally it’s going to be in the 60’s while I am gone, so not much of a change for me. Though everyone knows I prefer colder temps. Well as I may have written I became reacquainted with a lady I dated last year. It turns out she has moved last October. So we got to talking which turned into an offer to come down to Florida and I could stay with her. Now immediately people are thinking “your going to get some leg for sure”. Well that is not my thought at all, I am not that naive to think that an invite “comes with sex”. I have slept next to women and nothing happened, I think mature single people can do that. I do NOT condone that married people sleep next to a single friend, maybe when your 80 🙂 . This lady and I have had no previous physical encounters other than a kiss. We did have a good time, we have been bike riding, gambling and been to the movies. So we shall see what happens while I am there this weekend.

Well on to other things, irritations. Civil servants (or as I like to think UNcivil servants) who get in trouble getting “On leave with pay”. I am sorry but whoever dreamed this up ought to be electrocuted. It’s no wonder these adrenaline junkies think they are above everyone else and the badge just compounds this thinking. How about your FIRED and when and IF your found innocent then you will be reinstated and you receive back pay. These people are supposed to be examples for the rest of us, yet I rarely see a turn signal, parking in “No Parking” areas, a friendly wave all I see is snobbery and elitism. If you are younger than them and drive a nicer car you are pretty much doomed to getting a ticket and being harassed. No I have not had an incident just heard something on the news and also remembered some things from the past.

So in the future, use turn signals, maybe a friendly wave once in a while, maybe not drive down the highway during rush hour causing “inDAviduals” to think that your supposed to drive 5 -10 UNDER the posted speed limit. While out make sure that people aren’t running red lights and that their equipment (tail lights, signals, etc) are working as that helps all of us.

Well in April I am heading out to California for a pseudo family reunion, it should be pretty good. Though if it turns into a “house arrest” situation I will not be happy. Nothing like flying half way across the country and be able to see the local sights as well.

While I do not know what all took place I would like to congratulate Egypt for their own overthrow and hope they can show the world that bad leadership of any kind can be removed.

Good luck to Iran and Sudan.

America, take notes we need to work on this here as well!!

Well this was my second major holiday without Beth. Still feels really weird, as much death as I have experienced in the past 5 years hers still gets to me. I know it was only 4 months ago and I saw her “at rest”, but I still feel as if I could call her or see her. I also guess because the end was so quick, I feel if there were things we still had to talk about. The fact that I can not remember some things we talked about bother me as well. This relationship was so good for me in so many ways, but I feel as if the “cord” has been pulled on me as well. I always felt safe and loved and I reciprocated as well.

Sure I have made some friends mostly women as I am participating in online dating. But there are so many times when I am home alone. If I have nothing pressing or I am not motivated to do anything, I can get very sad and just start crying. I really really miss companionship, when I was younger I was always good on my own. I could go outside and play for hours without a thought of doing something by myself. I also know that Beth and I had a co-dependent relationship which I do not believe is a bad thing as we lived in a very synchronized way. We each did the “chores” without feeling put out or feeling as if either one of us was doing all the work.

Now I have my own place that I have created and hand picked all of the furnishings and decorations. I can feel myself becoming selfish as I want my surroundings to stay as such, but I want someone in my life. Other times I feel like setting a date and if I have no one in my life by then, that I give up and just take care of myself.

Ok “How I spent my Holiday”. Tammy (one of my G-f’s, not girlfriend, girl-friend) picked me up and we headed off to some heated golf tee’s in OFallon as a part of the Christmas Eve party I planned via Facebook. I think we each hit about 70+ gold balls. What was funny and good, was the fact that it had snowed much of the morning. So when we arrived we could not really follow the balls as we hit them. I was able to follow a few to see that I was doing alright for a 3.5 year absence. Tammy also was doing pretty good as for her absence was similar to mine. I look forward to going back for some more ball-crushing action (don’t go there).

No one had contacted us about joining the party, so we went off to stage 2 and saw a movie, The Fighter with Mark Wahlberg. I was a very good movie based on the true story of Dick Eklund and Nick Ward who are brothers that both became professional boxers. It’s just shy of 2 hours long but worth it in my opinion. So after the movie we are walking down the hallway and I step on something. I look down and it’s a cell phone. I asked a few people if it was theirs, which was denied by all, so I turned it in to the theater. So we get out and the snow had started back up apparently while we were watching the movie. Well it was about 4:30ish and though that it would be a good time to head off to the Ameristar.

Well with the new snow and the time of day on Christmas Eve, it took longer than normal to arrive but we did without incident. While on our way Tammy called a friend Cindy and then gave me the phone as she was driving. I talked to Cindy and tried to convince her that she should join us. She said that her cousin was coming to get her (Cindy either worries or is afraid of many things). So I then told her if her cousin decides the drive is to hard across town (30 miles probably) to call us back and we would come get her.

OK so we are at the Ameristar, we check in, up to the room which is nicely appointed. We decided to go swimming/hot-tub first to relax from golfing. The pool is very nice, it’s an indoor/outdoor style laid out in an “H” pattern in 4 shades on 1 inch blue tiles. We spent most of the time in the hot tub talking about anything and comparing previous travel experiences etc. We eventually got in the pool and shortly after wards I headed to the passage to the outside part of the pool. The water was still quite warm and the steam coming off of it made me feel like a rock star. I stood up many times (It was maybe 29 degrees that night) and then sunk back down in the pool. Occasionally I was go down as far to get to my ear lobes to add some warmth to my head. I felt as if I had confirmed something that I think I have always known, I like the cold as I feel more alive. I really enjoyed the outside part of the pool. So occasionally I would get out of the pool (indoor) and check my phone to see if anyone called or texted to find out where the party was next. No one contacted me, then the last time I checked Steve (Beth’s youngest) had texted me. I said we were in the pool, well I never saw him. In the meantime Tammy and I decided we had better get dry and head for dinner as a lot of the food places we close if not early.